Exactly. I started off with a huge foot high heel and nude nylon fetish and a masochistic desire for pain but no marks. Over 40 years I’ve done stuff I never thought I’d do like strapon ,sounds , forced bi, choke outs, piercing and being kidnapped off the streets of nyc. It was a gradual descent or ascent if you like to call it that I think and while I have little opportunity to session right now the desire is as strong as ever.