This is a complicated issue for me. I would say I am definitely 100% submissive in my sexuality. My base sexuality is the desire to submit to a dominant woman. My fantasies and desires are all suffering and humiliation at the hands of a dominant woman. While I am able to perform vanilla for me to be turned on sexually there has to be an aspect of Femdom to it. I have never had any desire at all to watch vanilla porn. These submissive and masochistic desires are hard wired into me.
Having said all this I have a “normal “ full life and am not submissive in any other part of my life which ironically causes conflict with my wife when we have different ideas about things.
I have thought a lot about all this and how I ended up where I am. Life has been very good outside of sexual fulfilment so no complaints but like I said it’s complicated.
