Having lived the lifestyle and dabbled in the profession, I can relate to everything you are saying. It is different for everyone. No one really knows what emotional impact it will have on them or if it will long or short term. My girl, who will soon be my wife, is a submissive in play situations. I'm a switch. We've seen each other through it all. I have stopped bottoming in front of her because it changes the dynamic in our relationship. It is not text book. Emotions are involved. We find people that can ride that wave with us or not.