You aren't alone. My sessions begin from the second I start thinking about it. Deciding who to see and going through the booking process is part of it. If it is a local session, I feel guilty for not going with this one or that one and wonder if they talk. It is all still exciting. I've had a few last minute cancels and plain out no shows. It is rare but it happens. There have been an occasional disappointment with a new or visiting Mistress. That is rare too. I do my homework. When it does fall apart, which has been on my end a couple of times, it is a big let down. The emotional drop you are experiencing is normal. It is good you have a wife who is involved with you on it. It could lessen the blow.
